Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Can't stand it here
I hate this house. I'm hating this family. I wish I seriously never moved here. The only good coming from it is getting my permit, and probably my license this Friday. Other then that, this move was the biggest fucking mistake of my life. Especially lately. All I'm doing is stressing, being yelled at because my mom is taking sides and ugh. I do one thing, I get yelled at. I ask one thing, she gets angry. Then, she'll turn around and start acting all nice. WHAT THE HELL?! I'm getting sick of this bullshit. My little brother is getting on my last nerve. I'm about ready to slap him and show him life isn't here to cater him. He's being the biggest brat on the planet and jumping into conversations he shouldn't be involved in. No wonder I hate him. I've given him trips with me to the movies, a couple toys he wanted from Toys R Us, and food...and he repays me like this? Lying to mom to see me get in trouble? F....U.....
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Hello again
Once again I'm back. I never remember to come to my blogger. I should really remember, even post small things that make no sense to many. Who knows? For those who have read my past blogs (probably no one? 1? 2?), you read that I moved from California to Nevada. Well, a lot of issues started to happen around two months ago, and last week, it was decided I would be moving back to California. I won't be living with any of my family, but living with my friend and her family. Her family was kind enough to take me in for little rent. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have them. I hope they know how thankful I am. I move mid-October.
The issues here are getting worst everyday. My mom and her boyfriend have been fighting constantly, and are very two-faced about everything these days. One day they are talking, laughing, and goofing off....the next, doors are slamming and they refuse to talk to each other. I have my pocket knife at my bed side cause I've been watching to much NCIS/CSI these days. I'm silly I know.
I've been trying hard to practice for my drivers test, which is on Friday the 30th. The only sucky part is that it's always on weekends and a lot of the times, it's just to the grocery store. I feel like I am not getting enough practice because of it. I got the car I'm borrowing for the test yesterday so I got to drive from one part of town to another....and I saw around seven accidents. One involved five cars, another was 1 car smashed into a pole, and the last one had two cars that crashed. I wasn't happy to see that while driving but that's the way of life I guess? Well, either way, wish me luck. I was promised a crepe if I passed successfully.
Not much else to say. My mom is being the biggest pain in the butt. My little brother is getting away with things cause if I yell at him, I get into trouble. I just can't wait to get out of this house...away from family for awhile. Focus on what needs to be focused on.
The issues here are getting worst everyday. My mom and her boyfriend have been fighting constantly, and are very two-faced about everything these days. One day they are talking, laughing, and goofing off....the next, doors are slamming and they refuse to talk to each other. I have my pocket knife at my bed side cause I've been watching to much NCIS/CSI these days. I'm silly I know.
I've been trying hard to practice for my drivers test, which is on Friday the 30th. The only sucky part is that it's always on weekends and a lot of the times, it's just to the grocery store. I feel like I am not getting enough practice because of it. I got the car I'm borrowing for the test yesterday so I got to drive from one part of town to another....and I saw around seven accidents. One involved five cars, another was 1 car smashed into a pole, and the last one had two cars that crashed. I wasn't happy to see that while driving but that's the way of life I guess? Well, either way, wish me luck. I was promised a crepe if I passed successfully.
Not much else to say. My mom is being the biggest pain in the butt. My little brother is getting away with things cause if I yell at him, I get into trouble. I just can't wait to get out of this house...away from family for awhile. Focus on what needs to be focused on.
Monday, May 23, 2011
May 23, 2011
Last week (May 16-22) was crazy! It was the last week of the semester at my college (I passed of course), I went to the movies three times in a row, and finished packing.
So for starters, for those who don't know, I am moving states. From California to Nevada. Well...it's more like moving back to Nevada after 6 years. I won't really bother to explain why. But I'm pretty excited to move back. Yayyy. I finished packing up my room for stuff that needs to stay until I get my own place, since I'll be mooching off my mom cause of college, and stuff I get to take. My room feels so empty now that stuff is all packed!
I also got to go see Thor in 3D last Thursday. I thought it was okay. It seemed pretty slow paced for me so I was a bit bored but it was good enough. I hope the squeal is better cause everyone should know that The Avengers will come soon enough! /dances. And last Friday I went to see Pirates 4 in 3D. I loved it! And I can't stop singing "My Jolly Sailor Bold". Saturday I went to see Pirates 4 again but in 2D. I went cause I was at my friends and her mom wanted to see it. Free movie~ Hehe.
Well..this post is mainly due to saying "Hey, I'm alive". So yeah..thats it.
So for starters, for those who don't know, I am moving states. From California to Nevada. Well...it's more like moving back to Nevada after 6 years. I won't really bother to explain why. But I'm pretty excited to move back. Yayyy. I finished packing up my room for stuff that needs to stay until I get my own place, since I'll be mooching off my mom cause of college, and stuff I get to take. My room feels so empty now that stuff is all packed!
I also got to go see Thor in 3D last Thursday. I thought it was okay. It seemed pretty slow paced for me so I was a bit bored but it was good enough. I hope the squeal is better cause everyone should know that The Avengers will come soon enough! /dances. And last Friday I went to see Pirates 4 in 3D. I loved it! And I can't stop singing "My Jolly Sailor Bold". Saturday I went to see Pirates 4 again but in 2D. I went cause I was at my friends and her mom wanted to see it. Free movie~ Hehe.
Well..this post is mainly due to saying "Hey, I'm alive". So yeah..thats it.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Days of crappiness
Yeah, the title doesn't seem to make sense...but I hope it will after this rant.
On April 4th, 2011...my now ex-boyfriend and I broke up after 7 months of dating. Yeah...it's not that long, but thats long to me. I've only had a cheater or loser as a boyfriend...so they were short lived...so this is long to me. But the break up was so selfish on his part that I seriously want to slam my head into a wall each time I think of it. It's stupid..it's pathetic...and it's a lie (from him).
Before we got together, he told me his plan to move out of state. I didn't want the long distant relationship...but he kept making petty promises and such...and said that it was still in the planning and may not even happen. We dated for awhile, had a lot of hard spots cause of all his female friends either enjoying to attack me, or just continuing to talk to him and he talks back WHILE I'm right next to him. Smooth move Romeo. I'm a jealous girl when things are so easily hidden from me and that he'd pay so much more attention to them then he would me...but hey, that's just me. He would look at my stuff and I wouldn't hide it, but he felt the need to hide his (hey boys: GIRLS DO NOT LIKE THAT).
In the long run, he was a good boyfriend to me. I must suffer from depression or being bipolar or something cause I'm so paranoid and sad all the time it's crazy. Or maybe that's just my past smacking me in the back of the head. But the one thing that just blew me away (not in a good way) was that he took everything so lightly, like he didn't care and then, in the end, while I tried to keep things strong, he just gives up.
His reason: Distance, Not used to the Title (being in a relationship), Wants a break
...Distance. I swear somewhere and sometime, I said I didn't want it...but I let it happen. And look at life now...it sucks. Thanks. The fact that he takes everything so lightly while I bother to try...it's such a turn off. I'm still wondering why. Why did he fall for me? Why did he say he's tried so hard to get with me if he's just gonna let me down in the end? Why so many promises like "I won't leave you unless you leave me" that he so easily broke?
I don't get it. Love is confusing. Life is crazy.
On April 4th, 2011...my now ex-boyfriend and I broke up after 7 months of dating. Yeah...it's not that long, but thats long to me. I've only had a cheater or loser as a boyfriend...so they were short lived...so this is long to me. But the break up was so selfish on his part that I seriously want to slam my head into a wall each time I think of it. It's stupid..it's pathetic...and it's a lie (from him).
Before we got together, he told me his plan to move out of state. I didn't want the long distant relationship...but he kept making petty promises and such...and said that it was still in the planning and may not even happen. We dated for awhile, had a lot of hard spots cause of all his female friends either enjoying to attack me, or just continuing to talk to him and he talks back WHILE I'm right next to him. Smooth move Romeo. I'm a jealous girl when things are so easily hidden from me and that he'd pay so much more attention to them then he would me...but hey, that's just me. He would look at my stuff and I wouldn't hide it, but he felt the need to hide his (hey boys: GIRLS DO NOT LIKE THAT).
In the long run, he was a good boyfriend to me. I must suffer from depression or being bipolar or something cause I'm so paranoid and sad all the time it's crazy. Or maybe that's just my past smacking me in the back of the head. But the one thing that just blew me away (not in a good way) was that he took everything so lightly, like he didn't care and then, in the end, while I tried to keep things strong, he just gives up.
His reason: Distance, Not used to the Title (being in a relationship), Wants a break
...Distance. I swear somewhere and sometime, I said I didn't want it...but I let it happen. And look at life now...it sucks. Thanks. The fact that he takes everything so lightly while I bother to try...it's such a turn off. I'm still wondering why. Why did he fall for me? Why did he say he's tried so hard to get with me if he's just gonna let me down in the end? Why so many promises like "I won't leave you unless you leave me" that he so easily broke?
I don't get it. Love is confusing. Life is crazy.
Why I'm here
Everyday, I have something to say, something to rant about, something I feel like I want to get out there and say. So, I don't care who reads this blog. Don't judge me, don't question me, just read. And if you want to comment, comment. I'm not going to force you, but I need a place that will accept me for being me.
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